So, it's the third night in a row I'm going to sleep after 3a.m. What is WITH this?! My brain is in constant motion thinking of the future. It's never been so graspable in all my life and I can't disconnect myself from the future and into the present. Also, I'm wondering if I have restless leg syndrome. Either way, there's definitely something up with my right leg. Sigh, so many medical problems with Jules. On the brighter (and yet ever dismal side) I plan on going home tomorrow for the weekend. Grandmere has just had yet another surgery and I'd really like to spend some time with her. I feel like I've been away far too much and I need to just be HOME where I beLONG.

In the spirit of my life about to change forever, yet again, here are some goals:
- graduate with a 3.9 from AIH June 18, 2010
- graduate with a Bachelor's in Dietetics as soon as possible
- save enough money for a down-payment on a house
- keep my car clean inside and out
- lose 45 pounds and get in the best shape of my life
- gain even more culinary knowledge through practice and experimentation
- save money to start the business I have a passion for I have never felt about anything else
- grow a high self-esteem
- be a better daughter, sister, granddaughter, friend, and person

Hello 23, show me the way to the rest of my life!

I'm broke.
Dead broke.
And in debt.

I chose to do my final project on something that strays from all the standards the program has set.

I'm upsetting people that are close to me on a daily basis.

Life is getting harder and harder, and I'm not handling it so well.

Help?

Today was the first day of my LAST QUARTER of school!!! The project that I'll be working on the for the duration of the class is going to be excruciatingly labor intensive. But hopefully it will all be worth it when I come away with a potential business plan. I'll definitely have my hands full with this class that projects 15-20 hours of homework each week, my other class that projects 4-6 hours of homework each week, my job at Barry's three days a week, and the Healthy Kids Job 2 days a week.

In other news, I'm so glad to be back on Facebook!!! It's nice keeping up with people.

I got my first sunburn of the year on Saturday playing... GOLF. I know, I know, what the HECK was I doing playing golf?! Well, I'd never done it so I thought it would be fun to try. We didn't actually play golf, we just went to the driving range. I actually thought it could be kind of fun if I was any good at it. Maybe I'll end up with a doctor or something and he'll make me go golfing with him and I'll get really good at it.

It's officially the last day of the quarter! I just turned in all of the paperwork for my internship class. It's so nice to be almost done!

Driving home from school, I saw a scruffy man standing in the place where three highways meet. You know, where there's a highway on the left side, an overpass just to the right, and another highway on the left, and underneath the overpass is a little cove that would be perfect for, say, a homeless man (were he to ignore all the traffic noise 24/7). So this man was pointing his finger in the direction of the cars and screaming his head off. His face was all red and he had crazy curly hair that was really bleached from the sunlight. I almost cried when I saw him because I knew that he's mentally ill, and because of that he's homeless. And I know that there are probably millions of people just like that, whose family (if they have one) couldn't afford to take care of them, or put them in a home so they end up on the streets and no one will hire them because they're crazy. I know that there are those who are capable and still will not do for themselves, but there are just as many who, due to unfortunate circumstances, are basically @$&#!@. I wish everyone could have someone to take care of them. I so often have these surges of passion in which I want to pick up homeless people, take them home, clean them up and find them a job. But then I know that many of them are also homeless because of addictions, and they would squander their income to fuel their disease. Oh Eve, why did you eat the apple.

Tomorrow is the LAST day I will ever have to wear my stupid school uniform!!!! I'm so excited I can hardly stand it!!!

Today I'm going to a "Science is Fun" training for my internship. OMG I haven't told y'all about my internship! Ok, so Baylor College of Medicine and Texas Children's Hospital have joined forces to work on a $2 million, 4-year research project called "Healthy Kids Houston". Basically, there are two groups: the intervention group and the control group. The control group (children around 8-10 years old) goes to the park two days a week, two hours per day. They have monitored time to play as they please, with no instruction. The intervention group meets two days a week for two hours but they have guided physical activity, as well as nutrition and behavioral lessons. They meet for three sessions, each six weeks long. At the beginning and end of each session, measurements and activity tests are given and recorded. I am an instructor for one of the intervention groups. It pays really well and it's pretty fun. My internship class is technically over next week, but I'm going to continue working for them until I move.

The Office is on tonight! I absolutely love that show. I've recently also gotten into Parks and Recreation, because I love the main character, Leslie Knope. And I've also gotten into Parenthood. It's not a comedy but it's a very moving show. The first episode I cried like three times. (Plus it stars Lauren Graham, aka Lorelai Gilmore)

Friday my teacher called me and told me it was the last day to drop a class with a 'W'. I asked her if I should, if I had an F. She said she wasn't sure, probably not an F, but perhaps a C ( I missed a lot of classes ), but she'll run the numbers again. So I spent the entire weekend fretting that I'd have to retake the most awful class of my entire educational career. But in culinary, a C is the lowest passing grade so it was possible I wouldn't HAVE to retake it, but it would lower my GPA a whole point. So I was disappointed about that. BUUTTT today I made sure to make her scrutinize over my grades and as it turns out I'll have an A after all!! I got As on all the assignments and I turned in every one so, the missed absences didn't overwhelm the other grades!!! SUCH a relief and I'm having the best day ever. Yay!!! She told me she must have gotten me confused with somebody else. Way to go, Teach.

If you still read my blog, please leave a comment saying so. I have a feeling only two people are reading it, two people that already know everything going on in my life, and if that's the case, I may just get rid of it.

So this makes a total of 7 days I've been home sick. Normally I wouldn't have stayed home so much, but because I work in the food industry every day of the week, I'm trying to prevent the people that ingest my food from getting sick. Aren't I just an angel? Everyone can please respond yes.

In other news, I've requested information from an online school, just in case I get some cool job opportunity that would prevent me from being able to take classes at ULL. It would probably be a lot cheaper too. Quandary.

Adam and I have started to eat a lot of sandwiches. I'm trying to be creative, but eventually my bread-meat-veg-bread creativity will run out. So please, if you have any great sandwich ideas/recipes/experiences, share them with me in the comments!! Who knows, if I own a restaurant one day I may name one of them after you!

I went to the doctor today. She checked my ears, and throat, and lungs, and temperature, and blood pressure and even took an x-ray of my head and found out... that I just have a cold. Whoopty doo. So I can continue taking the OTC medicine I had been taking and continue life as normal, if miserable. I went to the doctor because, after waking up at 6 to go to the class that I hate, I got sent home and told by my teacher to go see a doctor. A lot of good that did. But at least I got to sleep some more and know now that there's nothing more I can do but what I was already doing.

So, I'm still down and out with the sinus infection; I've missed two days of school and two days of work. It's awful!! However, not being able to do anything makes me grateful that I'm usually busy, cause otherwise I would constantly be B-O-R-E-D! I have three weeks left of this quarter, which means 6 classes left of the most horrible class I've ever taken. I cannot WAIT to get out.

Today, Adam and I went to eat at Olive Garden. This was our third time at this location. The first time we went, we turned around as soon as we got there because the wait was like half an hour... at 4 o'clock on a Sunday afternoon. Wtf? The second time we went, it was another long wait, but we decided to get a drink at the bar while we waited. Today we went around 1 and it was still completely packed. It seems like this restaurant never gets a break. Luckily, we found out they're building a new one closer to our apartment. I'll probably move before it's open, but I'm glad to know that the people of Sugar Land can enjoy the Italian of Olive Garden.

I love chocolate.

And I miss Grandmere's Poppyseed Cake.

That is all.